When it is all said and done, this is going to be me…on my wedding day!
Recently, within the last two days, I just decided that I was going to start planning my wedding. It started out innocently, just looking for vendors in the area, but now I can’t stop! In two days I went from dipping my toe in to having things done that should take months to figure out and organize. I know my theme, I know the exact dress I want, I have narrowed it down to 3 potential photographers, I picked a venue and the meal served by a specific catering company…I even know which place I’m going to use to do all my alterations. Maybe this is why I never made it this far before…I either lost interest or got too anxious and had to walk away.
The funny part is that I’m doing this all without actually having any money right now to execute any plan, so it’s a good thing I picked a date ten months away! What I don’t understand though is if I have that much time why am I trying to plan this as if I have a week? Why can’t I slow down? I do believe this is the same reason that I could never hire a wedding planner. I must be in control of everything!!! I’m like a suicidal bridezilla, my only intent is to finish this NOW, my health be damned! Today for breakfast and lunch I had coffee, and only coffee. I did eat dinner but it was half my normal portion and then I was right back to my budget spreadsheet and my people to call list.
I truly need a large dose of Xanax or Valium right now so my brain can just stop for a little bit. In the middle of this post I got distracted and went off to look at hotels and car services…I NEED HELP! By the way, if anyone here in the Kansas area does hair and/or makeup on location please get a hold me. <<< See…I cannot stop!
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